Compassion in Growth
I realized today that I’ve been giving a lot of energy to a voice that worries – a lot. About this and that, that remembers what didn’t go well the last time. That is keeping score, calculating and playing it safe. This whole time, I’ve thought that that voice was me, but I realized today that that voice is a script I play. It’s an unhealed part of me that is remembering what was rather than what is.
I noticed it because I’ve been practicing and today something clicked, I noticed me thinking the same things that I always think about life and what bad things might happen. What’s more, I noticed that I play these same things back no matter what the situation. “This is big,” I thought. This is a script from an old experience rather than reality.
A teacher of mine, Angel Grant, has me paying attention to feelings, to reactions, my body. She studied with Gabor Mate.
This voice plays so often, I thought she was me, and now knowing she wasn’t, I didn’t really know who I was. Without the baggage of my past fears, then…what would my life be? That is what I am sitting with – what could my life be?
Lessons from the garden
I’ve been learning to compost over the last year, and a couple of months ago the first soil was created. It’s a rich dark soil that I really like. I began to retrieve and sift it over time UNTIL I found a snake living in the dirt. When I saw it I froze, not knowing what to do. I quickly walked away to figure out the situation because I wanted to clear that container to store more food for composting. It sent me on an exploration to learn about snakes – of course the spiritual meaning of what a snake means, and then more practically – do you kill it, release it, it’s likely keeping vermin away, do I keep it and if so how do I live with it, is it poisonous?
I reached out to local gardeners and learned more about composting and its associated animals. I learned to move the compost every couple of months. A new, kind of container would be helpful. The snake is not poisonous, and is keeping critters away.
I personally learned my relationship to the wilder more unexpected aspects of nature. How frightening, wonderful – what it means to be even more integrated with Her (mother nature), with life. I’ve grown a lot by learning from this experience and realized the possibilities that lie in unexpected experiences.
New Moon
Because alignment with nature, earth, stars is important to me. I include a section on the new moon. With this new moon, I’m asking for support in knowing the woman I am. Now that this old voice of worry is moving away – let me step into the possibility of me.
The ritual of setting an intention and space, a candle, a crystal, flowers - for your opening this next month is helpful to support you.
Chani Nicolas has a great beginner’s intro to astrology on her podcast this week: https://chaninicholas.com/horoscopes/
10 minutes of Practice Time
JLC Events
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Botanical Gardens Book Reading & Soul Craft Event
On July 15th, I will be doing a reading of Duma’s Song at the Botanical Gardens. The children and adults that attend will craft their soul art piece using watercolors. It’ll be beautiful.
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Community Book Club
Sobunfu Some’s book, Women’s Wisdom from the Heart of Africa recently came into my life and changed everything. She shares ancient traditions and relationships of individuals and community from her village. I’d love to read this together with you. If you are interested. Click the link below:
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Together
Blossoming of your soul expression through community, conversation and creation. July 13, 2022 at 6:30 p.m. This is an in-person meeting. Details of the location provided at purchase.
One-on-One Coaching is available.
